CHIKISS


Poems & Thoughts 

 

Me with out you

I KNOW I CAN BREATH WITH OUT YOU, BUT IT HURTS 2. I KNOW I CAN WALK THRU LIFE WHIT OUT HOLDEN YOUR HAND, BUT I GET LOST. I KNO I CAN SEE IN THE DARK WITH OUT MY LIGHT THAT IS YOU, BUT I KEEP FALLING DOWN. I KNOW I CAN LIVE WITH OUT YOU, BUT I CHOSE NOT TO. ME WITH OUT YOU, IS LIKE RAIN WITH OUT WATER.

NOV. 26,2010 *CHIKISS* ->

pOeMs & ThOuGhTs

MY LIL LOVE (JR) 

YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE PUTTING A SMILE ON MY FACE, AS THE DAYS WENT BY YOU MADE ME GO INTO A HAPPIER PLACE. I KNEW YOU WOULD BE VERRY SPECIAL TO ME, NOW WITH OUT U I COULD NEVER BE. YOUR THE SPARKLE IN MY EYE, WE WERE MENT TO BE TOGETHER AND NEVER SAY GOOD BYE. THE EXPERIENCE WITH YOU EACH AND EVERY DAY KEEPS ME ON MY TOES, WHAT U WANT IS WHAT FLOWS. IM SO HAPPY WITH YOU MIJO I JUST CANT LEAVE YOUR SIDE, YOU MAKE LIFE SEEM LIKE A NEVER ENDING RIDE. YOUR MY LIL LOVE, YOU KNOW YOUR THE BIGEST LOVE I COULD IMAGGINE OF EVER HAVING, YOU MAKE ME ME HAVE A DIFRENT LEVEL OF MOTHER LOVING. MOMMY HAS A DIFFRENT MEANING TO MY HEART. SINCE THE DAY U WALKED IN.

NOV. 26,2010 *CHIKISS*

 Remember


Remember the day you left my side, we didn’t even properly say good bye. You took my heart with you on your death, I couldn’t believe you had just token your last breath. My world came to an end that very day, ever since in pain I have paid. Paid for the suffering I might of put you thru, all the regret in my face it just blew! I drank so much to try to forget, but all I kept remembering was all the regret.

*chikiss*

December 5th, 2010

5years ago 2day you left me in this f*cked up wrld, but i have found a reason2 live again. R.I.P. Mommy i love you and i miss you so much!

 

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Only You (dedicated to my hubby)

October 22, 2010

Only you can make me feel this way, its only you i think about everyday. Only you can make my palms all sweaty and my heart beat fast. Only you can make me forget the past. Only you can make my pain, sadness, and tears go away, Only you can make Everything okay. Its only you I love 2 hug and kiss, Its only you I miss. It's only you, your my one and only true Love, you were sent to be with me from up above. Only you are the love of my life and some day i wish to be your wife... (I am now!)

MADE ON: JAN, 14,2007 *CHIKISS*

LIFE

I SIT AROUND AND THINK ON HOW MY LIFE HAS BEEN,  I DONT REGRET ALL THE CRAZY MOMENTS THAT I HAV SIN'D.  IM THANKFUL FOR EVERY SMILE AND ALL THE  TEARS, BECAUSE OF THEM I LEARNED OVER THE YEARS. I LEARNED HOW TO LOVE WITH ALL MY HEART, EVEN IN THE TIMES WHEN WE WERE APART. I LEARND TO CRY FROM DEEP INSIDE MY SOUL, EVEN IF SOME PEOPLE THOUGHT THE REASON WAS DOUL. WHEN I WOULD LAUGH I DID IT WITH ALL MY STRENGTH, AND COULD HEAR ME AT A WIKED LENGTH. IM HAPPY I LIVED MY LIFE AT A RISKY LEVEL, EVEN IF PEOPLE LABELED ME AS A DUM LITTLE REBBLE. IN MY LIFE BY REGRET I WILL NEVER BE HOUNTED, BECAUSE I CAN PROUDLY SAY I LIVED MY LIFE THE WAY I WANTED. MOST PEOPLE LIVE RIGRETING EVERY MOMENT OF THEIR LIFE, IT STABS THEM IN THE HEART LIKE SHARP A*S KNIFES. REGRETING THAT  SINGLE MOMENT WERE THEY HAD A CHANCE, WALKING AWAY FROM IT AS IF THEY WERE IN A TRANCE. SO IF U HAVE THAT SINGLE MOMMENT OF LIGHT, GRAB IT WITH BOTH HANDS AND HOLD IT TIGHT. DONT LET NO ONE TELL YOU THAT YOU CANT, PROVE THEM WRONG AND SHOW THEM YES YOU CAN. IF THE CHOISE IS BAD OR IF ITS GOOD, EITHER WAY DO IT IF U COULD. ITS BETTER REGRETING WHAT YOU DID DO, THEN REGRETING WHAT YOU NEVER GOT TO DO.

NOV. 29,2010 *CHIKISS*

 One last hug

I wish I could have that one last hug one more time,  A big warm hug that is just mine. I have been wanting to feel your gentle touch,  The need of it has just been so much. I cant describe how these past years have been with out you, They have been the worst if only you knew. I see all the days that have past, They have all gone by so dam fast. Its been one more year with out your presence, I even forgot the smell of your essence. Mommy now I’m all grown up, But my frown hasn’t turned up. I still need you, And I still need that one last hug.

*Chikiss*

 Dec.8,2010

Dedicated to my Mom, May She Rest In Paradise

 

(Spanish) Para Angeles

Posted by chikiss vaca-martinez on Thursday, October 21, 2010

Desde el dia que te conosi, supe que eras hecha para mi. Cuando escuche tu primer llanto, fue como escuchar el mas bello canto. Cuando te tuve por primera vez entre mis brazos, sentia que nuestros corazones se ataban como lazos. Tus pequeñas manitas tan bonitas, y tus piernitas tan gorditas. Tus pañalitos con un raro olor, y tu camisita llena de sudor. Tu carita hermoza, aunke aveses latoza. En una palabra "Hija", la bebita perfecta era Mi Hija. Mi razon mas valioso para vivir, y aunke aveses no dejavas dormir. Eres mi mas grande amor, y hoy estoy llena de dolor. Se me fue la vida se me fue Mi luz, ya no puedo con esta cruz. Es demasiado dolor, y demasiado temor. Al pensar que no te volvere a mirar, y que no estaras para poderte amar. Amar como pense que lo haria, hoy te encuentras con la vigen maria. No creia que a mi bebita habia perdido y aunque quisiera ese dia no lo olvido

MADE ON: JUNE 10,2008 *CHIKISS*

FO MA UNBORN BBY

SEEING YOU GROW, FEELING YOU MOVE. EVERYTING IS SO WONDERFUL WHEN IT INVOLVES JUS ME AND YOU.  FEELING THE KIKS, AND FEELING THE STREATCHES, ALL THOSE WONDERFUL NIGHTS BEING SO RESTLESS. AS YOU DEVELOP AND AS YOU GROW, THE DAY COMES CLOSE TO BRING YOU HOME. I WANT TO HOLD YOU AND WANT TO LOVE YOU, AS MUCH AS I KNOW I COULD. BUT I HAVE TO WAIT AND WONDER, WHOS THE LIL PERSON THAT HAS BEEN IN MY LIFE SINCE DAY 1.

NOV. 26, 2010 *CHIKISS*

Tierd

tierd of being ignored, having my feings restored. so tierd of all this lonelyness, me treating others with super kindlynss. Tiered of having 2 put the broken peices of my heart on a sepreate pile, and yet havng to walk around with a fake ass smile. So terd of lviing a life where no one cares, having my poor heart with many tears. When will my tears stop rolling down my cheeks? they've been falling for many weeks. and im just so tierd... 

*ChIkIsS*

Dec.28,2010

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